Wednesday
How many hurts a person can get in a year?I really wonder? I told J that I bot her a present. After choir, she walked over saw it and left the audi. I took the guitar float and went after her. She put her head down on Bianca's shoulder and muttered something, which I was explaining the present.
Well, I consider myself a really nice person. But, I could sense that she didn't like it. I just deflate the float in front of her and just gave the limpy thingy to her. She asked, "Did u use a pump or did you just blow it?" Well, of course I blew it. Walking from the Hougang MRT and blowing all the way to the centre. Left it with her and I walked home.
How many hurts a person can get in a year?Add on to previously list on my post... 1. my godmother has lumps near her breast2. my grandfather's heart is failing3. Worried about my BEST friend.. 4. Of course, taken for granted. I have come to a conclusion that I WILL NOT put in anymore effort for the people in the centre. Seriously, what for? I always believed that being nice to people, just me trying to be Christ-like. Even thot, it's is something that I don't like - I would to make an effort to reach out to people. But, now ....
I just feel that people in the centre takes everything for granted. As thot for people to treat them nice is an attitude that they should get. They continue to accept and never bother to apprecaite things around them. Sad to say, Jenny is like that too!
When I was organizing her birthday party, in the midst of my busy work. The thing that she SMSed me what SHARRON's name is spell like this SHARON. Well, so what? I have been spelling her name like that. She doesn't correct me - to me it's like that SHARRON. What's the problem? Some over-concern on Sharon.
Well, everyone spells my name wrongly. I am not Mag. So what?? Some people don't see that spelling is a limitation of some people. Well, truthfully, I can't spell names and I find it hard to pronouce names. I can get Jeremy and JohnBoy mixed up for a long period of time...
But without fail, I would send people x mas cards / birthday cards. Candy asked how I remembered? Well,I write everybody's birthday down. Including Jereminah, Esther, people that I only meet once.
Coming back. I have decided to be reach out to selective people. I don't want to other people to take my kindness for granted or to be over-reliant on it. Perhaps, it is wiser to reach to people with greater kidness and not spead it out over so many people. I dunno.
I just want to learn as much stuff from Valerie and move on to another group. This is it for choir. I am really sick and tired of things. Being out for so long - Only NICK mentioned that he missed me. It's like doing the Kids thingy for so long - with 30 facilitators - only less than 5 ppl wrote back.
Thanks Nick.
Your kindness I remember.
Nothing in choir for me anymore. Time to move on.
I know that time will come soon.
How many hurts can a person bear in 1 year?Joyce smsed," Not that she didn't like the present, She was too tired and didn't want to carry it around."
How many hurts a person can get in a year? How heavy is a plastic float? with air and without? Time to move on.I think I have some serious problem.
I tend to remember the good in people and forget the bad.Forgiving to a point that it keeps hurting.
Yet, remembering the good in Ju, makes it so hard to move on.
Either the paths of the world is right or I have a serious problem.
princess maddie.
